We know this author’s story is a candid one, but we wanted to let him explain it in his own words as much as possible – and to show what it was that God, through His sovereign grace and mighty power, saved this man from. This series is lengthy, but an amazing reminder that God STILL works!
In case you missed the previous posts in “Out of the Darkness” series . . . the links are as follows:
I write it in the hope it may be of value to those who have not experienced what I have and also to chronicle another puzzle-piece of the falling away of the church.
Out of the Darkness {Personal Testimony} – Part 7
After watching some of Lenon Honor’s videos, I became acutely aware that much of the entertainment and mass media were involved in Satanism and Satanic activities and were mainstreaming pedophilia. Unfortunately, all of his expository videos have disappeared from the internet after he claims to have received multiple death threats against his family. His work did get me interested in symbol analysis in mainstream media. I did remember the following Albert Pike quote and started to question again the nature of reality and God.
“We shall unleash the Nihilists and the atheists, and we shall provoke a formidable social cataclysm which in all its horror will show clearly to the nations the effect of absolute atheism, origin of savagery and of the most bloody turmoil. Then everywhere, the citizens, obliged to defend themselves against the world minority of revolutionaries, will exterminate those destroyers of civilization, and the multitude, disillusioned with Christianity, whose deistic spirits will from that moment be without compass or direction, anxious for an ideal, but without knowing where to render its adoration, will receive the true light through the universal manifestation of the pure doctrine of Lucifer, brought finally out in the public view.”
At this point in time, I realized I had been regularly in contact with demons and that they were in charge of the world. I still did not know who God was and where he could possibly be if the demons were so powerful. I spent hours and hours decoding the symbols in media. All I can say is that mass entertainment and media display and present the most vile, degrading, base, disgusting, and repugnant views of humanity ever imaginable. The programming works on a conscious and subconscious level through systems like Neurolingustic Programming. They use symbols and symbolic language to work concepts into the mind with repetition. I found it interesting for a bunch of proclaimed atheists and agnostics, when the symbols are decoded, reveal with a uniform message they hate God and Jesus Christ, but on the surface claim they simply do not believe. I still did not know what to conclude from any of this.
Around this time, I had a dream of flying over the forest and seeing all of the nature. It was amazing and I was excited about it for days to come! I remember also a message in the dream that I would go there. A few months later, Ellie and I were renting a house in the San Bernardino National Forest. It was winter, and we were woefully unprepared. The day we moved was the first snow fall of the year and we got both vehicles and the U-Haul truck stuck multiple times. The refrigerator stayed outside for two weeks due to the snow. It was a real adventure learning to drive the switchbacks in snow and putting on tire chains at freezing temperatures.
Living on the mountain was like experiencing a 24×7 nature show. When I drove down to visit clients, I would regularly look down on the clouds as I made the drive. I made friends with a few of the stellar jays that surrounded the area and a mating pair built their nest on a panel outside the house. We had a family of racoons that lived under the house. Sightings of deer, bear, foxes and all kinds of interesting birds were commonplace on the mountain. The pace was much slower than in the city. Neighbors were friendlier. It was a small respite in the midst of a much larger storm. I thanked God almost daily for letting me live in the forest, but still had no idea who God was.
The $600 Mercedes ran acceptably but was a junker. The windows would not roll down. I ripped out the carpet because it leaked and water would pool water inside when it rained. I once got locked inside and had to tear apart the door panel to open the door. The passenger door stopped closing properly so I tied the seat belt and a bike lock around it and the passenger seat. The door would open slightly as I turned corners. None of the internal accessories worked. I figured the police would impound the car if I was ever stopped. Eventually, I drove it back to New Mexico and had the good engine swapped into my old car.
Arguments with Ellie were pretty regular over anything and everything. She accused me of having outside “relationships” with anything that moved. She had no peace within her and would often wake me up in the middle of the night to complain of experiences long past. Many of her grievances were illogical and incomprehensible. I was made into the source of all of her problems.
Goodbye To The Occult
In December 2012 I came to the conclusion that my spirit guides were demons and all of the activity I had been involved in was demonic. I burned all of my occult-related books and paraphernalia. I also wrote about it on the internet to disavow myself from them. The original post is entitled “Goodbye to the Occult” and located at http://universalspectrum.org/forum/showthread.php?2402-Goodbye-To-The-Occult.
I’m writing this post to publicly distance myself from remarks I have made in the past. As stated before in other posts, I have had experience with the occult since I was young although it was not a big part of my life. I simply studied topics that other people were not aware of and had supernatural experiences from time to time that very few people understood to be possible. In 2007, I realized the economy was going to crash and decided to look into the situation even further. What I found was that the structures that created and sustained the economy would be completely destroyed as well and that it was largely a world-wide phenomenon. Since then, I’ve spent all of my free time researching all of this with an open mind.
In December 2012, I burned every single one of my extensive collection of books containing the following subjects: meditation and transcendental meditation, aliens/UFOs, psychics, yoga, divination, dowsing, channeling and spirit guide influence (particularly the entire Oren Da Ben series), reiki and spiritual healing, DNA activation, Ram Dass, white magic and wicca, Native American shamanic practices, new age spiritual practices, Drunvalo Melchizedek’s books and practices, Miriam Delicado’s books, books containing Jon Peniel and The Children of the Law of One, Edgar Cayce, crystals and crystal healing, the Secret, the Seth series, books written by channelers, David Wilcock’s books, David Icke’s books, angelic healing books, developing ESP skills, Ashayana Deane, feng shui, tarot, Eckhart Tolle, and Jack Canfield.
I also destroyed and trashed the affiliated audio CDs, DVDs, VHS tapes, and accessory works. I further apologize to anyone I recommended these works to or praised them in any way. These influences can be personally dangerous and I would exercise extreme caution while researching them.
If you do your research, the only hypothesis that fits the top or capstone of the pyramid is the demons, also commonly known as the watchers, hence the all-seeing-eye. People frequently find out about the work of the demons, so they keep changing their name throughout time and cultures in order to avoid detection. As people grow old and die and cultures and languages change, the demons remain and all we are left with is a written record that is subsequently watered down and changed by each generation and new translation. The demons exist outside of time and space so it gives them quite a bit of power over us, especially considering they know the real history of the world.
I believe that the demons are the same as the spirit guides that come to visit channelers, the greys, the dracos, the reptilians, the Nordic ETs, the Hindu gods, the gods of the indigenous peoples, the spirit beings that help/guide those who practice reiki, the forces who affect the magic done by both white and black witches, Thoth and Quezacotl from Drunvalo Melchizedek’s work, the power behind those who practice crystal magic and healing, the protector spirits in feng shui, the spirits behind delivering messages through tarot cards and ouija boards and angel magic, and the protector spirits in feng shui and the i-ching, as well as the founders and instigators of many other religions.
Most people are not aware of the full story of the demons as it is not covered in the Bible. It is however covered in the Book of Enoch as well as the fragments remaining of the Book of Giants.
Throughout all the research I have done, I have also come to realize that there is nothing we can do to fix the problems in the world today. We did not personally create them and they are way, far beyond what most people are capable of understanding. The only thing we can do is attempt to ride out the storm that is coming. My personal belief is that we are in the midst of a mutiny or a coup that extends into the highest levels of existence. Instead of immediately destroying the coup, we are being watched to see how we act with our free will and whom we serve.
I would further submit that organized churches and fake Christians have done an excellent job to keep people away from reading the bible and asking the big questions. What I am beginning to see is that what the Bible portrays is very much anti-religion and just like America very different in origin from what we see today.
Editor’s note: Jack Canfield is co-author of the “Chicken Soup for the Soul” book series that many Christians unknowingly read and recommend. Also, the Book of Enoch and Book of the Giants are both contained in the Apocrypha. These are not inspired Scripture but contain information that can help us understand culture and history of Bible times.
Ellie followed along by burning her Beatles albums and related books. It was three days of continuous burning in the fireplace. Everything that did not promote life went into the fire. Anything that couldn’t be burned was destroyed and discarded as trash.
A while later, Ellie brought me my first Bible. It was my first time reading the New Testament as an adult and really thinking about it. I quickly realized the Jesus in the Bible is very different from the Jesus of the modern church.
The Jesus of the Bible was not a mealy-mouthed, easy-going, positive-thinking cartoon character with an infantile demeanor, but a strong, principled man who exercised clear control over the demons and demonstrated a knowledge of God’s Word superior to any of the world’s religious leaders.
That proved to be a stumbling block I could not reconcile. I determined I did not know why the modern church had a different gospel, but that ultimately I was responsible for my own life and for making the right decisions. Although I was moving in a new direction, I still did not realize the full extent of God’s sovereignty and power and did not make the full connection between the Bible and the inerrancy of God’s Word. I only knew Satan at this point and that everything in Satan’s world is a scam and a propaganda brainwashing operation. I knew that if you fell down, someone would be there to kick you or run you over. I think some of my confusion was due to what men say about who Jesus is as well as my prior reading of gnostic books.
To Be Continued . . .
We believe in the inerrancy and sufficiency of the Scriptures. Jesus said, “Thy Word is truth.” And so we not only believe it, we also base our worldview upon it.